So i've been hanging out with this girl from school, Emily. She's in the grade above me and is a cheerleader and popular but is really really reallly nice. Like, she has such great adivce about everythnig and really listens and is just sooo much fun to hang out with. She is so sweet and nice to like everyone, everyone like, loves her! She's so great.

Anyway, I've been talking to her about my problems and all the stuff going on in my life and she's been giving me such great advice! She is seriously so cool. She says that we can hang out after school some day this week and redesign my LJ. She talked to me a lot about positivity and stuff and it made a lot of sense. I'm going to try to be mroe positive!! ^^

so I'm kind of deciding between two guys... well, not really since neither of them like me, but yeah... i've liked one of them for just a really really long time but hes doesnt seem like he'll ever be able to see me as anything other than a friend and this other guy is just really really sweet but all my friends kind of hate him though i dont know why... it's so complicated.

next friday, after exams, our whole little group is coming together to hang out, just like old times. Theo and Ollie and Danny and me. It'll be great. We're going to have so much fun, i know it.

All I want for chirstmas is for him to notice me.

Darkness is pulling at my soul.